One guy Mason sitting top of the building. He tearing and handing her girl friends picture. He cant acceptable his girlfriend break up with him. He feeling without anything in his life. He drunk and see the portrait again. His phone is ringing, caller is his mother, he seeing the phone with hesitate and he giving up to receive the phone call which calling by his brother Joey. He breaking the bottle of bear and handing one of the piece of glass, he mind to cutting his trick to end their life. But he cant to it, he cry and angry himself because he didn't have courage to end his life. He throwing a piece of glass and cry again. Suddenly his phone ringing again, at this moment he throwing and breaking his phone until its didn't ringing again. He standing and seeing the environment around him. He having an idea to end his life which is jumping from building. Like common people who commit suicide of jumper, he rowing as neat for all his things on the floor its mean to putting down all of the secular. Standing up at corner of the building and closing his eyes. He feeling he is most of the one living so hard in his life. smile, this is the first portrait what he standing beside of the building. He smile himself because one of the girl can make him feeling painful until he want to end his life to getting disentangle. Studding awhile, he stepping in one feed to jumping from the building.
He falling down, at the first, he seeing 18 floor's aunt Soh bully from her husband. Then is 17 floor's uncle Josh quietly smelling his daughter's underwear. 16 floor's teenager John effecting of epileptic. 14 floor mentally ill's uncle Bean is tooling anyway. 10 floor's child, lie on the bed because of Vegetative of disease. 9 floor's family of uncle are suffer from hunger because he lose his job 3 weeks ago. He realize he is not the most painful people of this world. Then he seeing the environment around him, he seeing the beauty warming sunset dancing with the cloud, flourishing of the street and he seeing his home. Its opposite of the building between his jumping from the building. At this angle he can seeing the whole area around of his floor. He seeing his mother feeling happy to cooking a lot of delicious food, his brother Joey is using a phone to calling someone, his younger brother decoration the balloon, ribbon and etc with younger sister Joan, his father preparing the birthday cake and his ether sister is using the video cam to recoding this happy and warming memories. He suddenly analysis to day is his birthday and the parents are preparing a warming surprise to him. But their parents may not know, he will giving another big surprise to his parents. He smile, at this time, he smile himself for doing this kind of stupid thing. But its to late, he is lie on his pool of blood. All of the people what he saw at each floor are seeing him by now. His action make alarming to everybody on the street. Someone is calling ambulance, someone are covering their children's eyes and leaving from this area.
He standing up and leaving out from his body. He was a human, but he is a soul now. He sitting beside his dead's body, he feeling confuse because he mind to end his life to disentangle anything, but his memory still in his brain. He analyze that the yoke still around him and he also analyze suicide is not the way to solving the problem. Maybe the prices of disentangle is losing disentangle. He cry because he cant see the future now. He starting to smile, he smile himself and feeling regret, but its too late to turn back his way. He accompany his body until the black box car arrive and sending his body to hospital.
The sunset does down and changing at night. Their parents start to nerves because he cant calling him. His mom quickly to burn a stick of incense to blessing the god for his child's safety come back. But accidentally, a stick of incense cant be burn by fire and the portrait of the god suddenly crack. She mother analyze something and quickly worship on bended knees to blessing the god. His dad worrying and continuously walking around the home. Suddenly the house phone is ringing, its calling from hospital. His mother drop down the phone and crash after he hearing the phone. Its a big surprise for them. They all hugging together, the cries of sound is around the home. His younger sister Joan is request his brother alive from dad. Someone are crying at the corner of the house, its Mason, he came back and watching all the state of his parents, but no body can seeing him. He feeling painful and continuously to beating himself, but no matter how strength he use to beating himself, he cant feeling any painful because he is a soul, a real soul. But what can he fell is painful from emotional.
He smile, smile himself to do this kind of stupid things but its too late to changing the result. He only can see what he did and giving painful to the people who caring about him. He lose control and rushing in his bedroom and hiding under the bed. He crying and cant bearing this result. Suddenly one letter is dropping down beside him, its a letter sent from Harvard University at Cambridge. He success to request to continue study at Harvard University and the university is preparing full scholarship to him for continue study. He smile, smile himself, because of one girl he lose a lot of things. Review back, he ever had a lot of dream before. He mind be a famous director, earn a lot of money, then caring and traveling his parents around the world. But because of one girl he giving up all his dream. Its that worst? He stop crying and analyze for himself. He mind to getting a answer from his "Ex girlfriend" Mandy. He standing up and leaving from the bedroom, passing the living room, he discovering his parents are leaving out, maybe is going to take his body.
He standing outside at the house of Mandy and melancholy between his action. He courage and crossing the door to finding Mandy. There are double raw house, he start to searching the foreground but didn't found anyone. He discovering Mandy's phone is lay up on the table, there is one message showing on the screen. Its sand from his classmate Joyce to notice Mandy that the news of him. He realize that Mandy was knowing his suicide and he start to crying because he may know Mandy is feeling sad and painful for this news. He start to reproach himself, he ever giving a promise to Mandy which giving her a happiness of life. But at this time, he didn't have courage to facing Mandy. He feel that he will feeling painful when he saw Mandy feeling painful.
At the sometime he hearing some sound from second floor, be curiously he lowly moving up at second floor. On the way, he seeing Mandy's bra and underwear lay up on the stair. He continue moving up until crossing in the bedroom of Mandy. He is surprise and cant believable what he saw. Mandy is lie on the bed and playing 3P sex with another 2 guys. He shock and stunning awhile, one of the guys is his best friend Tin and another one is his neighbor Louis. The three of them having a sex together, he totally breakdown, his heart is break, his love is break, his friendship is break. He screaming and crying for the joke of destiny, but nobody can hearing him because he is a soul, a real soul and he also cant do anything. He feeling disappointing and angry, but he cant changing anything, then he means to leaving Mandy's house. Now he know the answer, and regret what he did, but nothing can change, its too late to recover back all the things. He sitting beside the street and watching the vehicle crossing the road. He confuse for the future. He wont come back to find Mandy again because she is a girl who easy virtue, holding a love as a game and he wont go back home too, because there is no longer his home. He cant forgive himself. Maybe "the price of disentangle is losing disentangle", this is the final answer what he got but the price is deal of life.
He hearing a sound around his ears, its speaking from a man who call oneself a hells angels and notice Mason he would be repeating to do a suicide until the end of life on his humanity life as a punishment.
One soul is repeating to jumping from a building everyday. At jumping movement he saw the every floor of people and parents. But nobody can seeing him, because he is a soul who repeating to do suicide. Maybe "The price of disentangle is losing disentangle".
I wake up from my dreams, a dream between real and fact. Who am i? I'm LaughingKho. I drunk until fall asleep last night. "My hand still holding my "Ex girlfriend" photo. Maybe the god through the dream and let me know, i'm not the most painful in the world, I have a lot of things which people didn't got it before. Maybe "the price of disentangle is losing disentangle". Im Laughingkho, i break up, but SO WHAT!
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